I don't think I can forgive my aunt or to repair our relationship and I don't want to do this as my heart is still full of hatred towards her.  I am telling myself that she is somebody that I don't know and I will try my best to ignore her as possible as I can.

If we are in the same place, I will not look at her as her whole self is really disgusting to me and ignite all my negative feeling.  I know that I am in disadvantage but I also know that one day, I will overcome it and see the light again.  So just let it be and focus on the thing that is more important at the moment.